Before I start, I’d like to thank each and every one of you who messaged me and prayed! I want to share that I felt your prayers and I can see God working through all of this! Feeling prayer is the strangest thing, feels almost like peace and comfort but magnified. I have never really felt that until late 2015.
I believe that, among many things, God created us for fellowship. He gave us these stories that fill up our lives. Many of which, are never shared. But what if, what if more of those stories got told? What if God gave you those stories to share. I believe that everything we go through… daily moments, small moments, large moments, trials.. are to bring us closer to God. Closer to the Kingdom of Heaven. We were made for so much more. This is, essentially, our waiting room. What are you going to do with this time?
Sit alone with your thoughts?
Talk to the person sitting next to you?
Read several magazines about the life you wish you had…?
Pass time playing games?
Me? In a literal waiting room, I wouldn’t have the courage to talk to the person next to me. But this is the beauty of the age we’re in. This is where social media plays a huge roll in our story telling and preservation. I admit, it’s much easier to share my life over some words and pictures on a screen. My heart still pounds and I get nervous but not nearly as bad as in person. In person, I can barely hold eye contact. I can barely talk for a few minutes before choking on air. But God is still teaching me and I’m patiently learning.
I also understand that some things are just too hard or personal to share. And that’s okay. There is a time and place for everything and not everything is meant for your community to hear or know about. But I have found that God will put things on our hearts to share about. To share about Him. How he has worked or is working.. with your life.
I’ve also learned that not every story has to be told when it has been finished. I’m realizing that stories can be told in the midst of them. This is where we grow our fellowship. This is when people can step in and say “Hey, I know what you’re going through” or “I don’t know what you’re feeling, but I’m here” and just knowing that you aren’t alone in your journey, can be so uplifting.
With that said, here’s a peek into what I’ve been dealing with. I’ll share more as I feel lead to.
I have a chronic virus that my body isn’t fighting against. I don’t really know any more in that regard. I was given viral immune to take but it immediately gave me headaches.
Then I switched to oil of oregano. Friday (July 7th) my daughter told me I had red bumps all over my arms but I didn’t think much of it.
Saturday night, when I went to put my pajamas on, my belly was covered in red-purple spots. I took some Benadryl and went to bed. The next morning I woke up covered in a rash! It didn’t itch much and burned slightly.
It is a gut issue and the blisters in my mouth also tell that my whole GI tract is full of blisters as well. FYI.. I had 30 visible blisters in my mouth. Paaaaaaaaaaain. I also had 4 on my lips which swelled up.
I have been seeing my doctor for about a month now. When my rash first appeared my mom contacted two doctors and they both said completely different things.
1. “It’s a heat rash, put some lotion on it” and 2. “It’s viral, any respitory symptoms?”
I didn’t know what to do at this point so I waited for my doctor to contact me again. Finally I was told to take L-Glutamine, a couple ounces of aloe gel, and slippery elm lozenges to help with my throat. She said I would feel better within a few hours and to keep her updated.
Fast forward to Tuesday and everything got worse. My face swelled, the rash became more red and enlarged, the blisters in my mouth became more painful and much bigger. I had heart palpitations, my temperature was rising and I overall just didn’t feel well.
I was instructed to go to urgent care and get steroids. I was nervous for a few hours, mainly for any needles or having to explain what was going on with me. It’s funny, I’m always telling people “Share your story! It’ll help others! or they can help you!” Yet when it comes to me, I’m too nervous to. Even to people who are there to help me.
So I got some prescriptions and a couple of days later, I have much better progress. The rash is fading and my swelling has gone down.
Prayers for pain relief and healing would be greatly appreciated!
I have an appointment next week to see what the next step is.
I trust that my doctor is getting me to better health and that God is helping me to nourish my body.